I am still learning

Written By Elsie Revange

Everyone is going through a hard time in life right now, whether it affects them mentally, physically, spiritually, or emotionally. I personally am still trying to figure out the chaos that is happening in my own life. I have realized that I am still learning. I am learning to be okay when things don’t work out between the other people around me and me, when getting rejected by a job that I thought would suit me perfectly. Who knows, I will probably still be single for a year or two from now; either way, I’ll be okay. I’ll be okay because I have God. Whenever I feel like I have failed or feel like I am taking a step back instead of a step forward, I tend to put a lot of pressure on myself. I am still learning about my identity in Christ and the purpose God has inserted in me. Going through life without God and having a negative mindset will only hinder God's promises for me! We are all human beings, and we are bound to make mistakes. Life is not going to be filled with sunshine and rainbows. There will be days of thunderstorms and rain. Each day is a new day; make room for failure and success.

A few days ago, the holy spirit reminded me that I am not perfect. He reminded me that I am going to have bad days, fall short of his glory daily (fall into sin), and be led by him won’t be easy. Long story short, I was getting ready for work, and out of nowhere, my mind started to wander off. I was thinking of all of the impure thoughts that were connected to my past. Instead of rebuking those thoughts, I just sat there and thought about them constantly.

• Romans 3:23 (NIV)- “For all has sinned and fall short of his glory”.

Yes, we are all sinners; our flesh is weak, but remember, repentance is key. After gathering my thoughts together, I asked God for forgiveness and started to repent on my way to work. At the beginning of my walk with Christ, every time I repented from committing a sin, I would feel like I wasn’t worthy of God’s forgiveness. The enemy will try to fill our minds with lies and tell us we are not worthy of forgiveness, but in God’s word, he tells us we are.

• 1 John 1:9 (NIV)- “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us all unrighteousness."

An encouragement to all, you are doing just fine! You are still growing/ learning about yourself and finding your purpose. Take me for an example; I am not perfect and still make mistakes; that is because I am still learning! God is the reason why I keep going in life. He is why I strive to encourage so many others who struggle with their faith. Be patient; this is just the beginning of something great. Trust God, and you will start to see his goodness unfold in your life!